Tuesday, November 27, 2007
i've been in a terrible mood these days, and to be honest, i'm not feeling any happier today. some things just gets on my nerve. and i'm repeating, theres a limit to everyone's patience.
scram before i bite!
Monday, November 26, 2007
the nightly routein returns. the tears shed.
please get rid of those emotional barriers.
there comes a point i'll lose all hopes,
for everything is telling me,
its not gonna be fine...
until you tell me so
i may believe.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
i was in and out of sleep the whole night. fighting the pills i took earlier, having thousand and one thoughts in my mind. i didnt know what i was doing, maybe waiting, but somehow, one thought repeatly appeared in my mind.
does it pays to be understanding?
what does being understanding means?
from what i gathered, it is to perceive the meaning of; grasp the idea of; comprehend. it could also means, to grasp the significance, implications, or importance of; also, to learn or hear; to accept as true; and more importantly,
to accpet tolerantly or sympathetically
"if you cant do it, I'll understand"
somehow being understanding is just like a facade, like wearing a mask. it gets tiring after awhile, and you feel you're doing it all alone. staying up late to get a call but yet it ends in just a minute. maybe it became a habit. the aniticipation wears down, its just another ordinary task on a busy schedule.
Dialled, "hello, (silence) goodbye. " or maybe add another line to make sure it doesnt sound too quick. why not? you wouldnt feel too guilty right? oh and for my part, add the i'm-really-fine-with-it voice.
"goodnight, sweet dreams" i sure hope.
the phone ended, place the mask down, and soak in that puddle of water.
where does understanding ever brings you to?
no where. oh maybe just a few block away everyday, and soon you'll find me in iceland.
now, do a mental check.
Be understanding. how can i forget?
the off and on headache is seriously no joke. my head's spinning and throbbing. It seems as though the sides of my head have screws that are tightening almost every sec. Hopfully everything would be better after a good rest. ):
but before that, i'll have to get my script for the crm practical done. its due on monday.
wish me luck.
